Betray By My Thoughts

I am still shivering by the breeze created by the fan even with a white sweater on, coughing my heart out from time to time, listening to 背叛 by Gary over and over again, with thoughts occupying my mind.

I am not sick, or at least I try to convince myself that I am not. Even I already slept 12 hours in a row, having shivers and coughing my heart out. Maybe there are too many things for me to do this weekends and I can’t afford to get sick. To need to work and finish up my mountains of homework, getting sick is not an option.

背叛 by Gary is a soft song with great music and deep meanings. I just got addicted to it, hitting the repeat button and let it run on and on. It somewhat brings me thoughts, thoughts of how my past relationship went. I wasn’t the greatest lover and did things that haunted me. I am not hanging with the past, just the thoughts of “what if”. Though it is all over now, I haven’t contact nor bump into anyone of them almost a year now, and sometimes I just wonder what if we did not force ourselves to form that relationship won’t it be way better.