I am been given the pressure to update my blog. (I didn't know people actually read my blog *ahem*)

I am working on it, yet with so much work going on around me I just can’t find things that is actually worth writing about.

Stay tune!

p/s: I did have fun this afternoon where I get to catch up with Beatrice, Joey and Joanna. (talk about how many things each other miss out on)

Shit Happens Month

With all the things happening around me, you can’t really blame me for well… not being so me. Basically a week or a two have been sort of crazy (in a bad way), let’s just say that, May is ShitHappensMonth.

I was emo-bitch-slut-pig-stuck up- lost-emotional-busy body-faker-sensitive-complicated-etc all roll up into one. Which is very scary, ask those who goes to UFP tutorials with me during first and second semester, they see that person before.

So I am here to apologize on any EmoFace, IgnoranceAttitude, IDidNotReplyYourMessages, IAmSuchABitch, SheIsGoingToBlow that anyone got from me for the past few weeks.

Cheers.

p/s: This is not a kiss-arse entry.

Walking Zombies?

When people resurface for tutorials, need an upgrade of a bigger file (like moi) and friends becoming walking zombies. It is a sign that finals is just around the corner.

Sometimes the bad thing about having people knowing the existence of your blog is that you can’t bitch about them in it.

Reaching For The Skies

The more I wasn’t confined with assignments, deadline or presentation the less I blog; isn’t it just weird. (lets just say I have been relatively busy with "something" else)

OMG! My mid semester break has come to an end, like this *snaps finger*. It has been a quite inexplicable break; everything was practically in fast forward.

One day I was partying, the next I was shopping around town, the other I was rotting at home and *pop* I was back at partying again. I just <3 my life.

-live life to the fullest-

Desperate 4 Attention

Short notes: Joanna tried to murder me with “Clorox” sweets. *gaps* She should have offer me those sweets before the mid semester exams starts, I might have take it.

I spent hours designing and making my new (current) blog header, yet no one took notice of it. I post up tons of photos sometimes, yet so one ever comments. (even how bad is it, I don’t mind)

I think I am starting to become an attention seeker.

p/s: for those who doesn't know "Clorox" is a bleacher.

Unavoidable Time

Short notes: I really got to stop procrastinating, and start moving my ass before I get left behind.

This few days has been really irrationally pressured.

With exam and tutorial and lecture all mumble-jumble into the whole week. It wasn’t the most pleasant thing to have when I am trying to dive into a story high of notes at the very last minute. (I would advice people not try this at home)

Rescheduling my own clash tutorial which I end up absent, dragging of my own lifeless body to lectures at 8 am in the morning, and some other lecture skipping was something unavoidable at this time of the semester.

All my close friends suddenly became hi-bye friends because we are too busy running around with notes and books to actually have time to ask each other how each other are doing lately. Heartless it may seem, but everyone is doing it, unintentionally.

I will definitely be looking forward for things to go back, back to its normal pace of life.

Appendix is Hell

I have been squash dead (hell I wish) by tons of assignments, notes to revise, and examination. It has been a crazy weekend of plain procrastinating with the most unexpected things (you won't want to know).Poking myself to finish up is the only thing I could manage *pokies* *pokies*. When I realize I was about to reach the finish line off all things just to realize it was just another check point. *Blah*

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By the way, what the hell is appendix? (no, not the one you get when you are having shirking pain)

Breeze & Sunbeam

25 March 2008

Weather: After a big storm
Time: In the everning
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With a fresh cool breeze on my face, and a hint of sunbeam touches my skin; it made my day.

Happily Ever After

Do you like a heartwarming novel by Nicolas Sparks or any romance novels? Where it all starts with all the tragic and sh!t hard bumps in life before meeting that someone special and live happily ever after.








Or do you like romantic lovey-dovey films where boy meet girls? They met go through something WOW and end up together again happily ever after.








And maybe a love song, that sang out all the happiness they are going through. Being together forever and ever, and once again happily ever after (I know I am sort of repeating myself already).

By heart, we know those things we read and watch from the silver screen would have a chance of 0.0000001% on us, getting the same happily ever after ending.








The chance is most of us is likely to stay with a bunch of dogs (god knows why I don’t like cats), and die lonely. If you are lucky you might have that plain dull IWorkMyArseOffEverydayToPutFoodOnTheTable life with someone you proclaim “your other half” and maybe with a dozen of annoying things you call kids.








Knowing all this, we still like romantic novels, and movies and cheesy love songs or whatever there is out there.

Those are something, something to keep us all believing.








To believe that there is still love out there, there are soul mates, forever and ever, and happily ever after.

I believe.

A Mist of Raindrops

I am exhausted, physically and mentally drained. It was an abruptly change of ambiance in my life since uni started. It seems like I committed more than enough time then I should have, to finish up homework, assignments etc…… Feels like I am devoting my whole life to finish up my work. At one point, I don’t feel like I have a life anymore. Slow starting to forget the idea of fun or time off. The person (I thought) I once was seems to be fading off towards the background. My life. My pathetic pointless life.

I Just Can't

I am filled with so many thoughts… emotions… expression... complains... voice out… dreams… etc to share.

Yet I can’t find words to write it down, speaking out is even harder.

I hope it is just a temporary writer’s block.

Why is it just so hard?

Irritating

People, who are over-confidence, have great pride and arrogance is somewhat irritating people.

Classes!!

My first week of classes is going to commerce.

I just don’t know what to expect out of it.

Good-For-Nothing

I have been downtrodden by quite a lot of sh!ts lately.

From the stupid timetable the good-for-nothing college fix for us (because of blah blah blah reason) to I am going to lose all my friends and not to forget lets fork up money for fees and pricey text books then to my money is burning out fast like bon-fires or maybe I might name library my second home possibility (if I can’t make any friends) and maybe I would get to lose some weight because no one to go lunch or snack with (like it is possible for me to lose weight). Oh yea, and those complicated procedures for tons of things (which makes me wonder how did my friends survived)

Those thoughts are filling up my brain, trying to corrupt that “innocent” little brain of mine…. *sobs* *sobs*

V-A-N-I-S-H

I am working tomorrow (for one day only) …… “GREAT”!

It is a buffer for someone; I wonder why I sign up myself for a boring day at MYDIN, selling Vanish. (for those who do not know what is Vanish, it is a bleach promise not to bleach off colours when using)

Look at the bright side (I guess), at least I get some extra cash to spend. *grins*

Emotion and Thoughts

Today was a fully emotional and thought bounded day. It started with orientation and the disturbance on our enrollment and timetable (let’s not talk about it before I burst into flames talking about it).

Plus finals result came out 2 days earlier than expected, which leads to everyone’s heart to skip a beat. A lot where having last minute anxiety attack, deep thoughts, worries happening inside them.

Overall here is how I felt about today.

The Good News: I pass my foundation program, which leads me now to Curtin University. Besides that, I might be getting a new gadget under a few circumstances (finger cross). Oh yeah, most of my buddies made it with me (well done guys).

The Not So Good (Bad) News: This is my regards to Shaun failing one of his papers; talk about cruel college not letting him re-sit his paper. Another thing that makes me worry is the whole new door that I open up and steps into; to the world of unknown.

I Want To Start Having Classes Already (NOT)

After 4 hours fighting with the some stupid computer virus or some idiot spyware at last I am able to long into BlogSpot to post an entry. (FYI it is now 0341)
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Few more days before college (or should I say uni) is going to kick start itself once again. I must say I didn’t have enough holidays to keep me bored at home until I would like to shout “I want to start having classes already.”

That Broken Tale

I am trying to sum up my greatest deepest thought, yet I got so many it made me indecisive.

I would like to bitch about my 15 year old cousin sister, but it is mean so I let it go. (trust me I nearly slap her if I would let myself do so)

I would post up some photos once again, yet knowing that I don’t really have great ones and you guys are sick of my photos already.

I would like to write on my thoughts regarding admission in to uni, thinking that it is too deep of an entry for a place like this.

I would like to write on how I spend my holidays, expecting it to be long winding which will bores the readers out of their mind. (I would then sound like a self-centered bitch)

So I end up with this entry instead, broken pieces of everything.

Over It.

It has been almost a week since I have a meaningful entry. I did say I would blog about something a little more interesting besides my finals. Yet I can’t seem to have anything appealing in my life to talk about.

Finals were overall “okay”, with doubts that I would pass everything. Yet I try to be optimistic, if not how am I going to get through the holidays without worries being carefree. It is not like I could change the result of my finals paper or anything. I hope you guys out there would be optimistic too, if not you would have a long winding suffering holiday.

Happy Holidays!